The Last Month with Noah

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Everything has been going well with Noah, other then the fact that his hearing has been getting worse. It seems like everyday it's a constant chorus of "what?" "huh?" and blank stares as if he's trying to hear you but just can't make anything out of it.  We noticed that he has started to read lips, if you make him look at you, and repeat yourself....  he'll get it.

It's hard to watch him struggle like that.  He is getting his hearing checked again soon, but it doesn't seem like it's soon enough.

He hasn't been so sick, that he has had to be hospitalized, since 2007 when he almost died.  It's silly to go back, because he's fine now, but I will never forget watching him so sick, 103-104 temp, him throwing up, just being so sick he couldn't move much, him complaining about pain in his right side /... knowing something was that wrong and not having the doctors hear me, until I couldn't take it anymore, I was desperate, so when I went in for my DR appt 2 hours away I took him with ... and finally got someone to listen to me.  Thank goodness, or he'd likely to not be here.  They admitted him, ran a gambit of tests, his kidney's were failing and they were throwing a ton of blood out into his urine.  I remember standing at the movie cabinet next to the nurses station, they were passing around his urine sample around, had no idea I was his mom, they were talking about how it looked like apricot preserves.  Yep - it was that color ....

 They saved him.   One of the hardest days of my life was to leave my child in his hospital room, and then go down one floor to give birth to another.  The day Nathan was born, Noah was released from the hospital, looking weak and tired, but better.

That was the last time he was in the hospital.

Until the end of last month.  He was running a 103-104 degree temp.... and he was so sick.  Took him in and his blood tests showed an abnormal white blood cell count, and his urine looked like this .... mind you, there is a blue stick in there that matches the color of the cover.......

A lot of blood ....... A LOT ... not as much as the last time he was in the hospital... but enough to really concern me.

The DR ended up sending us home for the night.  He was concerned about him possibly having appendicitis, or something else going on.  So he wanted him on a liquid diet until the following day.  He wanted him to come back to the ER at 11am so that they could continue assessment of appendicitis.  If his blood work wasn't better, if he wasn't starving, etc, then we would run the CT scan or whatever it was he wanted to do to diagnosis it.

So we went back the next day ....

 He was more miserable on the 26th when we went back in, then he was the night before.  His fever was not registering on their monitors all day.  Kept reading normal or low grade ... and then, I pointed out to one of the nurses that he was burning the hell up, made him TOUCH Noah.. he did it the normal way, and although it said 101 ... I told him I didn't believe it, it was way higher then that.  I said "I hate to suggest it, but will you do it rectal because I know that's the most accurate way to get a temp" so he humored me.  Want to know what his temp was?!?  104.8!  Yeah!   His pulse was racing, his blood pressure was high ... they put leads on him...  to keep better track of his heart rate.... and Noah was so hungry when we go there, that they ordered him a lunch tray and he got this huge cookie on the tray, and he didn't even get to eat half of it before he said "Mom, I think I'm gonna throw up" I frantically looked through the cupboards and such for something for him to throw up in and all I could find was a bedpan type thing, so I gave him that and........ he lost it. Not to mention, they had to stick him 5 times to get blood from him the first time, three times for the IV, another time for blood draw, and then they realized they hadn't gotten ENOUGH blood so they had to come back and poke him again.  TEN TIMES he got poked that night... and a lot of those were digging pokes trying to find a vein.  He did okay for the first couple, then he'd get really anxious between but whenever they were doing the actual poking or what not, he was brave and not crying.  He was BRAVE .. and he was AMAZING.........  (pick below, trying to show the leads on his chest, and you can sorta see the IV in his left arm on the right side of the pic ...

Good news was - his blood tests were better and his urine looked clearer.  YAY ... but something was going on.  His kidneys were still spilling out a "large" amount of blood and his Kidney Docs wanted him to spend the night in the hospital for observation.  So after 9 hours in the ER we got transferred by ambulance to Seattle Childrens.  (Noah in the ambulance)

These were taken on the ride over.  Noah - who is always trying to smile for pictures, even when he's really sick.... 

 Here he is asleep with Max ... and his blanket....

 On the way over on the ambulance ...  they got the news that he had tested positive for Influenza A (which they took the tests literally right before he was put on the ambulance bed and we were put in the ambulance)  So from then on, it was mask time.....

 He was taken up to his room at 2am and he didn't fall asleep until 4am, I didn't fall asleep until 5 ... and we were up around 8...  he had been throwing up everytime they tried to get him something to eat....but by Sunday morning, he seemed to be holding stuff down. 

So we ended up going home on Sunday.  His kidneys had cleared up and it seemed that the flu was attacking his kidneys.  I think it's going to be something we deal with everytime he gets really sick.  He ended up being out of school the whole week due to his fever coming and going all week, and then ...  we all got a stomach bug!  Seriously!?!?  At first we thought it was us getting the flu, until Noah got it too.. then we knew it was something totally different.  And after a long week of hit, misses, and a car accident, he was out that whole week too.

Now he's doing good.  Even his hearing has improved again right now.    Because we moved (while he was sick) ... he had to start at a new school and he is doing fantastic there I think.

 His new Mascot is the Killer Whale... 

He had a follow up with endo and everything is looking good, and he saw Genetics ... so that he can be followed by them. 

When ever I sit and think about everything he's been through, I am always amazed and always go back to the fact that I was told before he was even born that he wouldn't live.  Yeah he has some ups and downs.... but he is doing amazingly well for the hand he was dealt.

The Last Month with Nathan

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So a lot of stuff has been going on with the boy.  So I'm going to update.

So - we were living in a bad situation with some "friends" ... our whole family was stressed out, we were basically only sleeping there until we found a place, and we were looking.  Then one night, things escalated and we didn't go back.  We ended up staying at my Mom & Step-Dad's...  and it was amazing to see the kids moods just lift :)

But sickness then ensued.  Nathan ended up acting like he wasn't feeling well.  (here he is sleeping and cuddling his Mickey)

I noticed that his eyes were really goopy ....  so ended up waiting until the clinic opened on Monday, and low and behold, the Monday we went to go in, was a holiday ... so it wasn't open.  So we ended up going into the ER...

 Having a blast playing on the iPad ...

 See how icky his poor little eyes were....

He also had an appointment with Neurology to discuss his migraines which he had been having again, it seemed.  (Hiding from the dark a lot, needing to cuddle/kangaroo, a lot of sleeping....) ...  and when we were explaining things to him, the DR said that with Nathan's medical history he was worried about seizures ... so he wanted Nathan's eyes checked, and an EEG done.  I had never seen him have a seizure, but I also knew that you can not know someone is having seizures.

Two nights before the scheduled EEG I was sleeping with Nathan on my Mom's love seat.  Something weird happened and I actually think he had a seizure that night, I really do think it was.  I was about to record it, when it stopped.  It is the one and only time that I know of, that it's happened, but he wakes up in the middle of the night all the time - upset - and we don't know why.  So who knows.  

What happened?

Well...  he was sleeping, and he let out this whine, and it didn't stop.  Then he would build that whine into a cry and eventually he'd scream, stiffen up completely - like a complete full body stretch, arms and legs outstretched and completely stiff.  Then the whole process would start over.  Whine, build up to a cry, scream, stiff, whine, build up to a cry, scream, stiff...... I grabbed him and pulled him over on me completely unsure of what o do, he wasn't responding to me, he wasn't answering me or even looking at me like he normally does.  So I had him laying on me, back against my chest and belly and I realized while he was doing the whine building up to the cry, he was also trembling.  This repetitive process went on for about 3 minutes before it stopped.  Then he turned around, looked up at me like "what am I doing on you mom?"  He pointed at his pillow, I put him over there, tucked him in ... and he went right back to sleep.

So I called the Neuro the following day, and told the EEG people when he had it done. 

 Nathan is the "Frog" and the EEG lab is in the frog clinic ...

 Nathan playing games on the waiting room computer ....

 Getting the electrodes connected

 Wrapping up his head......

All connected ...

When it came time for the strobe lights, Nathan just laughed!  He thought it was the coolest thing.  He just laughed! Couldn't get him to fall asleep because he falls asleep with his hands behind his head, and he couldn't do that.  So he'd just get pissed off. 

The hour long EEG revealed nothing, so they want to do a 24 hour one, which is May 2nd.   I am hoping that if he is having seizures, that they pick up on it then. 

He had a check up with Endocrine to check to see how the HGH is doing and she was REALLY HAPPY with his growth.  So that's good news.  We see him going in spurts right now where he is really hungry and eats really well, and then when he's not so hungry and just doesn't want to eat.  Lately though, he has been eating like a champ and it's been so nice to see!!

His Autism (PDD) is doing okay.  He's still got major sensory stuff going on but he is doing so well in school.  He absolutely LOVES it...  it's a complete 180 from the school he was in before.  The preschool he was in before was very dull, not colorful at all, and just... he didn't enjoy it.  I donno what was going on there, but he didn't like it, and neither Dennis nor I did either.  Everytime he would go he'd cry.  We recently found out that the teacher is no longer working there either, not sure why, but she's not. This new preschool is amazing, so colorful.  Very welcoming, which is huge.  And his teacher is great.  Everytime we tell him it's a school day, he starts jumping up and down for joy.  We tell him he gets to ride the bus and he's excited.  HE LOVES SCHOOL.  Loves it!!

Then he had an appointment with Genetics too.  He saw DR. Glass.  So we would finally have answers on if his brain issues... and if it was Dandy Walker or Jouberts Syndrome, or something completely different.  We were going to finally find out what was going on with his last MRI.  He definitely doesn't have Jouberts Syndrome, I guess.  And Dandy Walker is questionable, his words were .... "It can be called at Dandy Walker Variant however it is all caused by the Russell Silver Syndrome I believe..." and then said he's rather call it some long doctor word.  So he doesn't really have Dandy Walker either, he has an under-developed vermis (in his cerebellum) or missing vermis ... and we also found out he has something called (we think this is what he said) ... Polymicrogyria ...  he said that, in a normal brain (which we all know) there is one fold, separating the left and right sides of the brain.  In the case of Nathan, along with the missing vermis, he also has a bunch of folds on the front of his brain.  Dr. Glass compared it to looking like a "bunch of grapes" ...

This is a Normal Brain

This is a Brain with Polymicrogyria

The last thing I wanted to talk about is that Dr. Glass said he conferred with Dr. M in WI (Nathan's Genetics Doc there) and completely agrees with her assessment of Russell Silver Syndrome.  Everything going on with Nathan, he said, can be linked back to the RSS. 

We are connected with a great group called the Magic Foundation, and they are having a conference this summer (which they do every summer) and we'd love to go.   But we just can't afford it.  I am debating tying to do some fundraising so that four of us could go, but I don't know if I can do it.  I really want to but...  I donno.......  UGH...

And to end with.... a few photos of Nathan "folding over" on St. Patricks Day...

Kaedyn's Surgery ...

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Kaedyn had his first visit with the dentist last week.... and it went just as we thought it would.   Sadly, Nathan had to have oral surgery.  His bottom 4 teeth had such bad decay that his awesome dentist had to pull them, and then he had the rest of his baby teeth capped...  this happened because of Nathan's high calorie diet.

When you have two babies, it's not easy to give them two diets.  So for the most part, they eat the same things.  We try to sneak things to Nathan, so he gets a little more, but it even depends on if he eats it.  They eat a lot of fruits, and love veggies.  They both eat that over meat. 

Kaedyn will ditch his cup if Nathan has something better, like Chocolate Milk, and drink Nathan's cup...  Kaedyn also acts like a vacuum and eats whatever Nathan has left over.  He is a scavenger ...  if Nathan puts something down, and Kaedyn sees it....  then ... it's his! 

We try to get Kaedyn to do better, but it just doesn't work.  And every time I brush his teeth, the gags ... so it's a negative response to a good thing - which to him - makes it a bad thing ...  which means that even though Nathan lets me brush his teeth, Kaedyn fights me tooth and nail ...  and I'm not kidding when I say it takes 3 people to hold the child down to get him to do something he doesn't want to do. 

So I try .. but obviously I am not doing a good job...

.... insert major Mommy Guilt..... 

So... over the past few weeks I have noticed that his front upper teeth were in bad shape, so I got him in.  And.......

Yesterday he had surgery ....  his top 4 teeth were pulled, the rest were fixed and capped.  Poor baby was miserable after, and he's still not eating much.  He is at least trying now, but .... he still isn't eating much ... and that is soooooooooooooo not like him.... 

He spent most of yesterday ....  sleeping, and then glaring at me....  then going back to sleep... then glaring at me....  then sleeping... 

Nathan getting on his Bus *Video*

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Here is how excited he gets when the bus comes.  He can't get there fast enough....

Baby Kaleb - Shaken Baby Syndrome Survivor...

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In May 2007 .... one of the worst nightmares a parent could have happened to one couple....  Their beloved son, Kaleb, who was their pride and joy, was hurt by the person they trusted to take care of him.  

If you aren't familiar with the story...  here is the story ...  (this is copied from a website) 

As told to me by Kristy.  Forgive me if any details are incorrect. 

Like any responsible parents, Kristy and Josh Schwade wanted what was best for their only child, Kaleb.  They did a background check on their day care worker, and even interviewed her in her home for two hours.  Kristy was even willing to drive 20 miles out of her way to provide, what they thought to have been, "optimum" care in a good neighborhood. 

On May 9th, 2007 their worst nighmare was brought to fruition.  After being in the care of this home day care worker only five times, Kaleb was picked up by his Grandmother and Aunt.  They noticed that he was lethargic and experiencing obvious breathing abnormalities.  The caregiver told them he was ill, but Kaleb had just visited the doctors the day before and was given a "clean bill of health".  When Kristy arrived at her mother's home to pick Kaleb up, she described him as "having no life in his body".  She tried repeatedly to wake him, but with no avail.  She and her father got in the car and rushed to the hospital.  While in the vehicle, Kristy lifted Kaleb's little eyelids.  She noticed that his pupils were different sizes.  Being the wife of an EMT, she knew immediately that this was the sign of a head injury- Kaleb needed IMMEDIATE care.  They stopped at the nearest firestation.  The ambulance took him to the nearest hospital, and he was classified as a "trauma alert".  He was then life-flighted to Tampa General Hospital, and was admitted to the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit (PICU).  He was diagnosed as having Shaken Baby Syndrome.  They also discovered that he had been SMOTHERED! 

Kristy is not currently working, and she and Josh spend every possible moment by their young son's side.  Medical bills, cost of gas, lawyer fees (I assume they will begin building), and general living expenses are mounting. 

When something happens to your child, your world STOPS.  Suddenly it doesn't matter that your "roots" are growing out and you are getting split ends.  It doesn't matter that your neighbor is parking his dumpy car in your parking spot.  You no longer care that someone cut you off on the highway, or that someone jumps infront of you in line at the grocery store.  Nothing else matters but your child.

Kaleb is their world.  The doctors. The PICU.  It's all that matters now. 

This family is not asking for anything other than your prayers.   

This situation has become widespread because a friend of Kristy's decided to forward her bulletin asking people to pray for the family.  PLEASE support them by spreading the word about this page.  The more people who are aware, the more people who have the opportunity to bless this family. 

Thank you for viewing this page, and for supporting Kaleb and his family. 

Oh, and many of you have been concerned whether or not the sitter has been charged.  YES charges have been pressed, but she is currently out of jail on a $5,000 bond. 

Below is Kristy's original bulletin posted shortly after the incident. 

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Hello everyone...

I write you this message in grief in faith.

My son Kaleb was rushed by ambulance to the emergency room on Wed. after we picked him up from the babysitters house. At UCH they determined that Kaleb had a SubDural Hematoma (His brain is bleeding). He then was Bayflighted (helicopter) to Tampa General Hospitals Pediatric Intensive Care Unit on a Trauma Alert.

Doctors determined that Kaleb was shaken while at the homecare he goes to. He is suffering from Shaking Baby Syndrome.

When we first arrived at the hospital they put a pressure gage into his head to moniter the Intercranial Pressure (The pressure that the brain is under due to swelling and Bleeding). He wasn't doing too well all day yesterday, his pressure in his head was ranging between 29-40 and the normal pressure is between 5-20. So doctors decided that the best thing to do was to put a tube into his brain to drain spinal fluid from his ventricle. This procedure was a sucess and brought the pressure down.

Today however, they did a Cat Scan and saw that Kaleb is now suffering from a stroke and has formed a new bleed in the brain.

I believe in Miralcles! I believe that prayer works. I am asking you, all of my friends, whether you know me well or not to PLEASE pray for my little boy Kaleb. He needs a miracle and we need your help!

I know some of you may not believe in God... But he exists! And he's already performed one miracle. Please I ask you, I beg you, to Pray for my little boy and my family. He is my everything

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 I followed the story closely, writing Kristy several times....  My heart broke for them, I had just had Nathan right before this happened...  and I prayed a lot for that little boy.  I was excited on the good days, and worried and sad on the bad days, praying all the while.  


The babysitter finally ADMITTED to what she did to Kaleb, and it was finally all over in June 2010.   Ex-Day Care Worker Pleads Guilty In Shaken-Baby Case ....


Tonight - however ....  just a few hours ago.........  Kaleb became an Angel.  


Kaleb's story touched so many people, touched so many lives....  grabbed so many hearts...  on Myspace and Cafemom....  and anyone who heard the story....  


Kaleb feels no more pain, but his poor parents are missing him greatly.    Kristy posted this on her Myspace: 

Kaleb's last update. Jan 24, 2011

 

Hi Everyone. 

First off I would like to say thank you for all of your prayers throughout the years. 

Kaleb went to heaven today at 5:08pm. He is now an angel and has been given the strength to walk and run and play with the other children angels. His death was very quick and he seemed very comfortable. I cannot express the gratitude for all of you and your support throughout the years. We find peace knowing that Kaleb is in heaven with Jesus and feels no pain. 

Thank You

Here is a WONDERFUL interview done with Kristy August 2010 (the above picture was shared there) ....  


The first picture I shared, was taken from Kristy's Myspace - from one of their fundraising events....... I thought, it was fitting. 

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

Kaleb - I hope that you are running and laughing and talking up a storm!  Enjoy Heaven baby boy!!  You touched so many lives!!

Article: Surviving Special Needs ... by ME!

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Surviving Special Needs

By Annissa (Mammarazzi13@aol.com)  © 2011

            It’s funny, some days, how people perceive you.  Some days, people look at you like you gave birth to a monster, and others, people feel the need to tell you how strong you are.   What they don’t understand is being a parent of a child with special needs has nothing to do with strength.  

            I personally dislike the phrase “special needs.”  Every person has a few special needs, a certain type of bottled water they prefer, the need to feel superior, or just those who enjoy not being noticed.   They are all special needs an individual has to cope with feeling comfortable.   My children, they are unique!

            My middle two boys are my medical miracles.  I have one child born with a rare disorder called Mosaic Trisomy 16, and was only one pound twelve ounces when he was born.  The Doctors, I was told later, pretty much had no hope of him having any quality of life.  However, he is 9 years old now and proved them all wrong.  Does he have hurdles, of course he does, but nothing like they tried to make me believe he would.  Then my 3 year old came along and he has what seems like a never ending list of medical stuff going on, from Autism, to missing part of his brain, to having a type of dwarfism, and more.  The thing I hear the most:

YOU ARE SO STRONG!

            Yeah, not so much!  It has nothing to do with my strength.  It has more to do with supporting my 

children and being there for them.  Doing everything that needs to be done to make sure they have a good life.  Having a wonderful support system, and finding outlets for myself and my family to create a type of normality.   Most of all, it comes right down to love.  LOVE is the key to it all, you’ll do anything for love.  

            Most parents of kids with unique issues would give anything to trade places with them, to protect them from the pain, and let them live in the innocence that most children get to experience in whole.   Most of us don’t break down until we’re behind closed doors, because we don’t want our children to see how much it affects us, because it’s not about us.  All parents just want to protect their children.   Unfortunately, those of us who have unique kids, we have to sit back and watch them go through things no child should have to.  We have to be their biggest cheerleader, their support, their parent, their friend, and sometimes their nurse. 

            So what about us parents?  How can we survive all this and not just fall apart.  It’s all about a few key things.

·         Trusted Doctors

·         Wide Support System of Family & Friends

·         Taking some ME Time.

And when one of those things isn’t in place, everything just feels off balance, so it is important to find that balance. 

            If you don’t like your doctor, keep looking!  We have gone through a few that we didn’t like, but for the most part, we have found a lot of wonderful people in the medical field.  Having that support system is very important.  Family, Friends, Church, even strangers will come up and offer help, there is nothing wrong with taking it!  It is sometimes hard to do, but you will need to take it.  Practice saying YES, instead of NO … followed with “we are doing okay.”   It’s okay, to not be okay!  Finally, finding some time for yourself is usually the hardest.  I know I’ve gone days where I don’t eat and it suddenly dawns on me when I’m not feeling well at the end of the day.  It’s hard to take time for us when our children needs us so much.  Read a book, take a bath, play on Facebook, find something that is selfish and just for you, for at least twenty minutes every day.  Even if it’s after your kids go to bed, and making yourself take the time before you go to bed.  

            The last thing I suggest is starting a blog.  It may not be for everyone, but I suggest it mostly so you can get out some of those pent up feelings that you don’t want to let out, because it’s not good to hold that stuff in.  It can be a private blog, for just your eyes, or a very public one where you share it with family and friends to keep them updated.  If writing is not your thing, that’s fine.   Just do it for yourself, most of you will find it therapeutic.  Who cares if no one but you reads it, you aren’t doing it for readers, you are doing it for yourself.   If you go public with it, it’s also a great way to get awareness out about your child’s medical issue.  Even if you go public, you don’t have to use names, or locations.  Give your family a cute nickname, call each of your kids something else.  Information you share is up to you.   And there are places of support for bloggers for Unique Families.   It’s always nice to be able to talk to other families who understand a little, or a lot, on what you and your family might be going through.

            Most of all, take time to capture memories with your children.  Photos, mementos, maybe even start a scrapbook.  It’s amazing how fast they grow up, how much they change, and it’s wonderful to sit back some nights and just take a walk down memory lane.  

            Our children are everything to us.  It’s amazing how, once they are born, it’s not about us anymore, it’s all about them. 

Nathan got a Package!!

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Nathan got his box today from Auntie Jenna!!  He opened it up.... 

Video of him opening his package....

His lap pad ...

 Playing with what Auntie Jenna calls "Fuggly the Dino" lolol...

 We were saying the letters on his Lap Pad

Having some Play Time...


He just LOVES the stuff!!  And he's VERY picky about what he sleeps with, what is around him or on him at night, especially on him....  if I cover him up with another blanket other then his beloved Banks... then he will 75% of the time, wake up with in 5 minutes and scream or throw it off....  tonight, I put the "snake" by his head, and he had the dino, and I put the lap pad on top of him over his blanket....  didn't... hear...a ... peep... from him!! 

3 hours later, he was still laying there............

First Bus Ride... NO TEARS!!!

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Nathan started school - for the second time - last week.  Incase you didn't read about it - his first preschool was very dull and not very inviting.  He went through some testing for his speech, etc, and he got put in a great classroom with a great teacher, the room is really inviting and welcoming.  It's a small classroom, so he has more one on one attention right now.  Well, even though we aren't in that school district, because he's on an IEP he can get bused there because that's where the school district placed him.  So....today was the first day that the BIG BUS picked him up.

All morning I was fretting about how he was going to take it.  I was expecting tears, clinging and especially him shaking his head and telling me or yelling NO .... I never expected what happened!

To begin with, I talked with Nathan... told him he'd be meeting a new friend, and how he'd be riding on the bus, and trying to prepare him for it. 

So when the bus came, and I opened the door....  HE RAN before I could even get my shoes on....

By the time I lifted my camera.........

 He was all the way down the sidewalk.... threw open the gate and everything....  he didn't bother waiting to get his jacket on or get his backpack, he was just gone!!  Then he stood right outside the door of the bus and waited.... 

 And when he opened up the door, Daddy was just catching up to him with his jacket and backpack...

 Daddy came and grabbed the camera and took pictures of him from the other side of the bus, where his seat was.  He said he was waving "Bye" in this picture...

 Little Man....on a BIG BUS...

 The last picture I took ....

 Kaedyn and I cried........... seriously, we cried.....

And then when he got home....  Little Man getting off the bus....

 Going down the bus steps all by himself..... 

 He got off the bus and turned around and looked at it like "Can I get back on now?" and then when I directed him to the gate, he paused ... like.... "this isn't what I had in mind" ... 

 Master Noah had pop'd out of the house and asking "Nathan did you have a good day?" ... 

 And then the sweetest moment...........

Seriously though, he seemed to have an AWESOME day at school.  It THRILLS me to the core that he's doing this but it scares me to death too!  Which is so silly but he's getting big but he's still so little.  He's almost 4 and still just the size of a 1 year old to 18 month old....   But he is doing AWESOME and what parent wouldn't be PROUD!!!